This is the one question I am asked most often.

I am spiritually sound, emotionally stressed and physically functional.

I am really ok.  I’m surprised that you’re surprised that it would be any other way.

Sure, I have my days when I am in what I call a “funk”.  And yes…it’s probably better to leave me alone at those times.

Yes, many mornings as I pray, I am sobbing….not so much in despair, but in gratitude that there's still something left for me to do each new day… 

Yes, I am taking everything moment by moment and most of my moments are great.  There are times when you may just look at me and I break down.  The stress factor is very real.  This is just how it is. 

I’ve concluded that this breast cancer is really just a small part of my life and I will treat it no other way. I’m 35 and I haven’t dealt with breast cancer for 35 years.  There are other things that make up who I really am, so I won’t be crippled by this.  This is truly how I feel.

If anything, this experience has shown me a lot of things.  I’ve rediscovered my love of writing.  I used to keep a daily journal from about the age of 10 until I was 21.  (Maybe I thought I was grown or something and stopped then, but I really love writing!) 

I’ve been able to start that new diet to lose my baby weight!  (Just kidding..I don’t diet, but the weight loss, although minimal, is real)

I’ve also learned to find humor again and to laugh.  Laughter is very refreshing.

I can only imagine my investigative children mimicking me if I were to walk around in a foul mood all of the time.  When I look at them, I want to stick around just cause they give me such joy.  If any of you know my girls, they pick up on any subtle clues and will call you on the carpet quick if they even suspect something is out of whack.

I have a husband who loves me.  Would he really be able to handle my girls without me? 

I have a wonderful family, beautiful friends and coworkers and even people I don’t know who have offered me support and encouragement at just the precise moments that I needed it.  How overwhelmed I have been to experience the graciousness of people!  THANK YOU!

Most importantly, I have my God, my maker who already knows that it IS already alright.  I’ll trust him.  (Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.  In all thy ways acknowledge him and he will direct (or make) your paths straight – Proverbs 3:5-6) He’s shown me so much! 

See…I told you I was just fine. 

Thank you Cheryl, Karen, Shon, Deborah, Velma, Cathy R, Tina, Holly, Brandy, Shatonya, Kenya, Horace,  DeeDee, Patrice, Marty, Lyndell, Enita, April, Shelita, Deljuana,Claudia…..

September 21, 2007