Each day I feel a bit better. I feel stiff and sore mostly at night and in the morning. I do tend to over do it a bit so I really have to watch it. My mind is ready to go but my body is not there yet.

I went to the doctor and had some stitches taken out today. That was nice I was tired of looking at them. I am still swollen, bruised and sore.

I found out from my doctor today that I actually had 10 units of blood given to me. She said that was more than she has ever had to give any patient. I think I was real close to no pulling through for a while there. She said they were really concerned about me. Good thing I don't remember most of it!

I was having some fears of death. Not just for myself but others around me. It was starting to consume my thoughts and I don't know why. I have never feared death before. I guess losing my father in 2006 to cancer than a year later being diagnosed myself and going through the chemo and surgery finally took its toll on me. I really turned to my faith and asked for it all to go away.

Tonight I watched this documentary called Crazy Sexy Cancer by Kris Carr. Its about her journey after being diagnosed with a rare vascular cancer EHE for short. Don't even ask me to write the full name its long. Anyway, her attitude through this has been so positive. She has been living with cancer since Feb. 2003. She has tumors on her liver and her lungs and her cancer is stable. I don't know what it is about February? My dad and I were also diagnosed that same month. Strange. I learned a lot from watching Kris. I am not going to worry about the what if's anymore. I am going to sing, laugh, dance and enjoy every moment of my life. I cannot get enough of my husband and children I am so blessed!

Thank you to all the families who are bringing us dinners. I cannot tell you how much I appreciate your kindness.

Ron and Danielle~ I continue to pray for you everyday. I think of you often.

Charlotte~ Thank you for setting that up for us.