Yesterday was my LAST DAY OF RADIATION!!!!  No more driving to Dover every morning!  No more laying on a table all exposed while this big ass machine zaps the crap out of my boob!  And no more walking into the "Cancer Center" day after day - a constant reminder of what I've been going through.

I feel great.  Tired, emotional, a bit on the sick side (from the Fibromayalgia) but great nonetheless. Kevin came with me for my last treatment and my Mom surprised me by meeting us in the waiting room with a giant sun balloon.  We hugged and cried and talked and cried - it was just so emotional!  You'd think you'd leave there on top of the world and bouncing off the walls with excitement (and you really do to a degree), but you can't help but feel overcome with "what's next" and "who's going to take care of me now" and "don't you think I should call the doctor tomorrow just to let him know I'm OK?"  It's all just weird and different.  But mostly, IT'S DONE!!!

For now anyway.  Next step is a follow-up with my Oncologist (Dr. Poulin) on Tuesday and then I imagine I'll start medication and regular follow-up appointments.  I'll really never be completely done - I realize that now. My friend Karen who has gone through this wrote to me and said, "There's always going to be a BC shadow, sometimes behind you, sometimes staring you in the face."  Let's hope it stays in shadow mode for at least a long while.  :>)

I know I need to write more (and want to) and I will do so very soon.  Thank you all again and again for the amazing support you have shown me continually!