10/5/06 Work has been fantastic - they have told me not to worry and just look after myself.
The APAC nurse comes every day to change my dressing and check my drain and stuff. Im spending my time looking up everthing I can on the net it helps to be constantly active otherwise I just get thinking about crap.
I just thought I would add I feel strange, very ambivalent about all this, like Im watching someone else go through it. Im  determined not to let any bad carma in I have to keep praying and believing for total healing. I am going to live a magnificent and wonderful life.
11/5/06 Bloody mothers day adds making me all emotional. I think im surviving this part of the journey with a touch of denial and a lot of knowledge, reading way ahead of time helps me know what im up for next - 80% of women survive breast cancer (note to self - must be in that %) and 1 in 11 women will get BC in their lifetime!  
How lovely it is to have so many people calling lisa tells me everyone is asking about me.  I love that everyone is concerned for me and feel very blessed about that, need a little space though. 

How to get through this: avoid toxins- preservatives smoke etc , eat healthy, positive emotions, regular intake of antioxidants and immunsy system support.