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Dealing with the news myself..... |
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Dealing with the news myself was strange. I think that I was just numb. I basically kept up with my normal everyday things, not really thinking too much about it. Driving my daughter back and forth to school everyday, attending her school functions. On the outside it was as if I was just normal. Inside, was a different story. I was scared as hell. I didn't know what to do. I didn't really know what my husband was feeling. He doesn't really talk much about how he is feeling, so I didn't know. I wanted to know what was going on in his head. He keeps it so hidden. I think he thinks he is saving me worry and grief by him acting so strong all the time but it puts so much stress on him keeping in to himself. I worried about and still do, everything. If my kids are going to remain healthy. If I am going to make it to see them get married and have children of their own. I feel deep down in my heart that I will, I just have that worry in the back of my head. I didn't really know HOW to deal with the news. Like I said, I was just numb to it. I did my normal daily things until my doctor called to schedule the surgery......
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