The rest of 2003 went on without any surprises.  We enjoyed Xmas and my hair started to grow back.  My life started getting back to normal.  Although "Normal" became a term that I didn't understand anymore.

I missed my body.  I hated the weight I had gained from the chemo.  I hate the new gray and curly hair that was coming in on the top of my head.  I hated that I had absolutely no energy.  I missed the old "me".

I slowly but surely worked at getting that old "me" back.  And I did eventually.  Although I was never the same again.  And that was ok.  I saw life in a new way. 

I started taking less things for granted.  I let go of the little things.  I focused on making the most of everyday.  I started showing my love for my family and friends more.  I reached out and tried to help others.  I became the person I had always wanted to be.

I was sleeping with NED (No Existing Disease).  He became my new boyfriend.  Thank god my husband didn't mind!  I wanted to be with NED for the rest of my life.

I had my annual mammogram in January of 2004 and January of 2005.  NED was still around and my affair was going strong.  My husband was still supportive as ever