Happy Halloween!

I went to the physical therapist today for the first time. The weather was unbelievably warm- we must’ve hit 70 degrees here in NH today!

We worked on my left arm today- as my Medial nerve is still quite tight. She showed me some good exercises to do to keep things flowing through my lymphatic system and to work the arm a little bit.

She also measured my arms to check for lymphedema. No signs here… which is good. I tend to be a worry wort- so that put my mind at ease. Not that I thought I had any- but just to … confirm.

She spent a good amount of time massaging my arm and the nerve- and although a little sore after- my range was coming back to me. I wasn’t able to totally lift my left arm over my head yet without some discomfort. With some work- it’ll come back –it’s not too bad as it is.

We live on a private road with only three houses on it – so we NEVER get any trick-or-treaters. We have lived here for 7 years now and have not yet had one trick-or-treater… until tonight!

Todd and Aaron were working outside when I heard a knock on the door. I was confused why they’d knock on the door and not just come in- so I went to the front. There I saw the cutest little pirate and scarecrow staring back at me. Andrew and Tyler had come with mom and dad to trick-or-treat! They are friends of ours that also live in the same town and thought they’d pay us a visit.

I was very surprised to see them and was upset that I hadn’t bought any candy this year. They quickly sneaked me a Butterfinger and I pretended to go get some candy from the kitchen. I came back and gave the little pirate the candy. Next year- we will most certainly buy some candy – for our two favorite trick-or-treaters!

Todd’s sister called me tonight as well and I got to talk to Addison. She told me "trick-or-treat" and "Halloween" in her little voice- then proceeded to sing and dance while Kerri held the phone. She was tinkerbell and was performing her dance and song. I can only imagine how cute she was.

Before we went to sleep, Todd asked me if I was going to buy candy tomorrow? I said "no, why?" because its 50% off he said. Always the thinker he is!

I had another appointment for physical therapy 11/01. That day my knees were totally killing me. It was hard to master the steps to the basement to get the laundry and it ached my knees to drive (I have a standard). I drove to my appointment, which was actually 5 minutes from my work. I drove by work and looked at the parking lot to see if anyone I knew was outside? It pains me to drive by without being able to stop and say "hi" – but a lot of people are sick right now at work- so I can’t stop in to see them. I can’t wait to see their faces again as I miss them a lot.

So I went to the appointment and went home. I have three steps to get into my house- and I felt as though I had aged many many years as I found them difficult to maneuver. I let out ughs and oofs as I took one at a time. My knees felt as though they’d give out- and the pain reverberated into my hips. Just a part of chemo (or rather the Neulasta shot) I tell myself- it won’t last forever. A lot of times I find myself saying that – it won’t last forever, it’ll be better tomorrow. I thank the heavens every day for each day – whether its good or bad, I’m thankful to have them.