I have been real tired and a little depressed lately. I just want it to be over. I want my hair back and my energy back. I go in for treatment number 10 tomorrow. I am starting to have adversions to the smell of latex gloves and the saline they flush my port with. I can actually taste it I really dread Thursdays now. I have been getting hot and cold flashes, boneaches and nerve pain from the neupogen, my mouth and throat are very tender and sensitive, my stomach is upset at some point everyday and I wake up at 4:45 every morning and can't get back to sleep. This is what I feel daily but I put a smile on my face and move forward. God has blessed us with a new day everyday! Now that is a wonderful gift! Ok no more complaining! I just have to get it out and be honest about this yucky Chemo!

I have a lot of people to thank.

The ladies that teach Jordyn gymnastics gave me a gift card to a spa the other day. I was not expecting it and having a blah day and this made me so happy. Thank you ladies! I will be getting a spa manicure and pedicure! So sweet and thoughtful.

Christine Oleson brought us a taco dinner and cookies! Thank you!

Stacy Vroom Jordyns teacher made us a casserole and brownies! Thank You!

Christy Holden made us a yummy lasagne. Thank you!

Teresa Carter thanks for giving the kids a ride home tomorrow.

Dary Rivera Thank you for the Chicken alfredo and rosemary bread!

You all really don't know what this means to me or how much it helps out.

My husband Jon is really hanging in there. For all you who have kids and have them in baseball, gymnastic, karate etc. You know what a job that is in itself. Lately I have been too weak to shuttle them to and fro, help out in what ever activity calls for it and Jon has taken this on for me. You are doing a great job honey!! Hang in there!

I'm also a little stressed out and I am sure my family feels it. They are handling it well by telling me to relax and quit worrying so much. I have always been a worry wart so this is not so easy for me. I am learning!

C~O~N~G~R~A~T~U~L~A~T~I~O~N~S! to my friend Kelly! She is having a baby!!! Its her first! Yay! I cannot wait to hold him or her. Its been so long since I held a new baby. You will be a wonderful mother Kelly!