Its 4:30am and I can't sleep. I can't believe how I look right now. My introduction photo was taken in February. You wouldn't even recognize me now. I have almost lost all my hair. I have some eyebrows and a few eyelashes left. My bottom right eye has one eyelash left I showed it to Jon and he says its cute. Too funny! If I don't put my make-up on I look so sick I scare myself. I have thanked got for many things but I really must thank him for helping someone invent Bare Escentual make-up! Nothing else adds life to my face like this make-up!

I have been real tired lately. School is out tomorrow for the summer. I must say I'm glad. the routine is running me down right now. The kids are in the best school. The teachers and parents have been so kind and supporting during all of this. I am going to miss everyone. My kids have made some great friends and I hope they can see them sometime this summer.

I start Taxol May31. We will see how I react to that chemo medication. I talked to my doctor and it looks like my surgery will be at the end of September. Chemo is over at the end of August.

My mother in law was here for a week and I have to say a big THANK YOU! She helped me get organized, cooked meals, caught me up on my laundry and made me rest. Yes I sometimes have to be told to go to bed. I will push myself too hard and pay for it later.

I think I need some coffee now. Yes, I started drinking coffee again. Its organic thoughI am trying to eat organic whenever possible. I am not a complete nutter about it but doing my best.

These darn hot flashes One minute I'm cold and have a blanket on the next I'm throwing the blanket off and fanning myself! My kids are like hotflash mom?

Have a great day everyone!