The girls and I went to my chemo treatment today. Its a long one (for me anyway) some people are there all day. I came home and went to bed. Sleeping the first night is not easy with the steroid as you all know. The girls brought there little things to do so they were fine.

I get to meet all kinds of people while I am getting my infusions. I met this lady who is 63. She was telling me how her husband has been living with colon cancer for four years now. They are christian and their faith in the Lord and Prayer have really made a difference in their lives. In November 2006 she wasn't feeling well and went in for some tests. It turned out she had Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma (cancer in her lymphnodes). This was such a surprise to her. She is beautiful, classy and very healthy. She told me she lead a happy active wonderful life. She ate very healthy and it shows! She has no hair at the moment and has lost 25lbs since starting her treatment but you can tell what she once was. You would never be able to tell she was 63. Didn't smoke and had an occasional glass of wine and exercised on a regular basis. So, here are these two wonderful people still full of life been married for 40yrs both going through Chemo for cancer. Her husband was given days to live many time and he is still here. Amazing! She calls him her miracle man. I just love talking to all these people. hearing their stories. Their strength is amazing as is their faith in God.

The funny thing about this was we were both given our doses of benedryl and were mispronouncing words etc. Our nurse was probably ready to lose it We knew what we were saying though. ;) 

I do a lot of thinking. I have learned so much since February. Relationships with friends and family were always kind of difficult for me. I would know how I felt about a certain person and what kind of friendship or how close I would be with this person. Then other people would say this and that and somehow I would be sucked into their feeling or thoughts about that person and I would start second guessing myself. I have decided that my friendships/relationships with family etc. have to be on an individual basis. How, why and what others feel are not going to effect my views on people anymore. Then its up to that person to be what I charish in a friend or family member. Loyal, Honest (and I mean brutally honest) I want to know how people really feel about whatever we are discussing. One thing that my father in law has always said is "be who you are, know who you are and love who you are." He is right on! Life is too short for silly little he said she said non-sense. I just want everyone to be happy and full of life and love. If something is bothering you and you don't feel comfortable talking to whoever it is  about give it to God and move on. That is what I do and it works

I want my family and friends to come to me with whatever it is that involves or concerns me whether it be good or bad and we will work it out. You all mean more to me than you could possibly know. I have a great respect for people who can really truthfully speak their mind. No fake people! Its a waste of your time to be fake. People see right through it. Really put yourself out there and you will be amazed how freeing it is. I am not saying be mean just be you. Change is the one thing you can count on happening in life.

Ok...climbing down off my soapbox and sitting back down in my chair

Now please don't think I am talking to any one person. Its just how I feel and what I want in my personal relationships with everyone in my life. I will not judge people by second hand information anymore. This has been a weak point in my life and I am done with it. That's all.

Well I would like to wish all you dads a fantastic Fathers Day!! My father in law Mike (you won't be here but we have a card for you when you get back Jim Stone hugs and kisses to you! You are in my prayers everyday and we will beat this! 

To my Dad Jim Culwell who lost his battle with cancer 1/7/06 I miss you and love you soooo much If I could have one more hug and kiss. Happy Fathers Day Daddy! Rest In Peace you kind, sweet and humble man. You were such a great grandpa and the kids miss there G-pa so much.

Mom thank you for coming and visiting me. Its been so long since I last saw you! Gosh, Easter of 2006 I think! It was nice to see you and I hope you are going over my life plan that I made for you. I love you mom. Everything is going to be ok.

Krissy you are doing so well! You are a great mom and it was wonderful to see you. The boys are so well behaved and CUTE! I hope we can keep in touch. I know how busy you are and i am a patient person. Whenever you get a chance drop me a line and send some picture and I will do the same. You will get nothing but truth and honesty from me. I mean that!

Christy Monday will be fun. Jordyn is real excited and so am I! Yay girlfriend time. See you, Bailey and Lexi at 11:00.

Michele I still want to see Knocked Up with you. If you haven't seen it already. I will call you ok. I hope all is well. Say hi to Luis for me.

Kelly A. how is that baby coming along? Are you doing ok? I think about you now and then. Let me know if you need any advice yet. I have been there 3 times myself

Diana (Mom in Law) I can't wait to see you again. Thanks for all you did for me when you were here. Much appreciated. You whipped through my laundry so fast! Prepared meals, organized my kitchen, read stories to the kids and taught them how to help me as well. I tried to help and you knew just what to do to make me sit my bottom down and let others take over. Something that is very hard for me but I am learning. Thank you!

Have a great weekend everyone!